Who am i ? Why am i here ? Where did i come from?

03 November 2009 @ 07:54 pm

let me start off by saying stupid lab book ..it's missing review sheets so i have to meet up with my friend at 12:30 to make copies and do the fucking thing...then my stupid rough draft is due thursday and the books i need are and have been checked out of the school library ! so i must now venture to the public library and i don't want to do it by myself because i'm bound to get lost LOL thankfully my BF will come with (yes i am now no longer single and its an amazing guy not the jerk who confuses me and i bitch about ) ...ANYWHOO my plans for tomorrow have gone in the shitter ughh ..THE END

Current Mood:

annoyed

Current Music: Man in A Box - Alice in Chains

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17 October 2009 @ 04:34 pm

Ive Lost My Soul & I Regret Nothing !

well for those of you who might see me on a daily basis you know what i went through...Those of you who don't well:

Not to long ago i decided to get back in the myspace scene and i had a friend request from a ~~Manny~~ so i checked and he had other people i knew so ADD. He began to talk to me and well everything went ok until ...well i i gave him my number *YES I KNOW IM STUPID* so then he would text me and well he said some very "inappropriate things" for example "describe yourself to me , are you cute, come meet me after your class" and well i would respond but apprehensively so during one of my conversations he asked "do you know Ramiro?" and i answered yes but what did he have to do with anything.."HE IS MY COUSIN" i just didn't know what to say ...and i had to ask Ramiro if this guy was really his cousin and yes he was...and Ramiro says "if you want to date my family i dont care its up to you" XD like i would need his permission if i choose too ! lol ...so his cousin was just so eager to meet me and well i agreed but i had something up my sleeve i told Santos to come with me but just "bump into me " she agreed and somehow she helped me convince Ramiro to go as well. we agreed to meet at the science center so while in line for McDonald's Manny text saying im here so i told Ramiro and Santos go and sit away from me ..so me and Manny sat at a table and really nothing to talk about bec im like you make a move at me ill kill you..so then Ramiro & Santos came up and we acted surprised and well we all decided to walk around and Ramiro kept him away from me and during the process texted me about "you owe me , i own you , ur so lucky"..and well even though i felt like a douche bec the guy just looked bored well ever since we dropped him off at the bus stop he has not texted me or anything ...FINALLY !

So we went to Starbucks after being reminded in the car about how i lost my soul :] then we had one of those wonderful deep moment we always have and apparently im TOO NICE ! yes i understand ...and well after that our epicness begin and the talks about random crap ..then me & Santos watched T.V with her family which i love ....again we forgot to take a smoke together rofl but next time hahaha man I LOVE Santos & Ramiro for life <3

now im thinking about how i can not be nice i can never be selfish ...

Current Location: my room

Current Mood:

amused

Current Music: Amber -311

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23 September 2009 @ 07:50 pm

Random Talk

My Week So Far :

- Smiled at the same guy twice ..he almost ran into a bench the first time so i just smiled then i was kicking it with Rosales and he passed by

- A girl almost fell on me on the bus ...REALLY those handels arn't safe !

- Didn't see that guy on the bus i see everyday lol he got a hair cut i was going to comment but i didnt want to lie....it looked bad XD

- Went to Whimsic Alley :]

- I walked 10 blocks to get back to school

- CAN'T wait for tomorrow hopefully ride invite is still valid...that fucking man :]

-Shopping with Jerez tomorrow ..

- I LOVED the beach today with its creepy fog

- Me and Rosales broke Facebook last night

- Yesterday was mncdfvovbwjrg EPIC SHIT

Current Location: Desk

Current Mood:

cheerful

Current Music: Owl City - Fireflies

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22 September 2009 @ 10:02 am

Writer's Block: My Favorite Quick & Healthy Recipe

What’s your favorite quick, easy, and healthy recipe?

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ohh my tofu stirfry suprise <3

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07 September 2009 @ 04:32 pm

Jimmy Kimmel Live (The Used)

First off Santos ILY forever <3 i know your don't like The Used but you came and we made it a Hollywood trip to remember....

- We saw wax Samuel Jackson and laughed at how for a split second we thought he was real
- Found out lip piercing are $45
- Hot Topic and made asses of ourselves
- Sanario "Fuck too much pink"
- We couldn't get into G-Force play zone XD
- Creepy guys hit on us
- Rode the elevator because stairs suck lol
-Ate Johnny Rockets
-Went to the top of Kodak Theater and observed the people down below lol @ Joker
- Lined up for Jimmy Kimmel
-Realized we fuck around with Ramiro too much
- Finally saw The Used ....Mosh Pit !
-Lesbo moment 1/100's we held hands so we wouldn't get lost going to Mel's Drive-In

man we were surprised we got so close LOL at Kimmel getting is hair brushed backstage ..Quote of the day from Sanch "You know Ramiro likes The Used i should have told him *laughs* but you chose me so forget him *high five*"

( It Rains snapshots of The Used :]] )

Current Location: My Evil Lair

Current Mood:

chipper

Current Music: Safe & Sound - Kyosuke Himuro

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20 August 2009 @ 11:25 am

"Stars shoot clear across the sky just like my time, waiting, wanting , feeling nothing"

The incommodiousness of last night was just beyond words…

So he actually wants to know how my days have been and everything is going fine until he says “I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about my relationships ” and he just let it rip all the while I’m just blown away as to WHY are you going to tell ME this!? You know very well how I ~~felt~~ feel about you, I poured my heart out to you something I vowed to never do for anyone! So I’m happy you can trust me enough to tell me instead of your best friend but THINK! You say you aren’t so fucked up to people well apparently you are so what is it;

A. You want to make me feel like shit and tear my heart out

B. Testing me to see how I react

C. Am I the person you’re thinking about …..?

Of course me being the caring person I just listened and gave you advice .We never put the idea of us to rest so hope still lingers in me…but for now I do want you to be happy with whoever you choose & yet that’s the problem who …you never gave me names but you said I do know them and well that can still include me because duah I know me lol but let’s leave me out of this …that leaves two people:

+ One who I would be okay with really I think it could work :]

+ But the other person she’s not bad yet ARGH are you fucking serious!

The array of feeling subsided and only serenity was left as we just talked like we always do. Even thought we were miles apart we both looked up at the star filled sky wrapped in the cold darkness of the night, stars the only witnesses to our distress. <-----*

PS: I think I found the words to the melody I came up with *

Current Mood:

tired

Current Music: 21 Guns - Green Day

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01 August 2009 @ 10:17 pm

Wedding Bells

Ok so soon enough ill post pictures and a blog of my teachers wedding :] and plus me and moni had too much champagne rofl we are/were "buzzed" (i can still stand and what not lol ) im home and all i want to do is sleep im tired seriously those two kids its TRUE FUCKING LOVE <3

Current Location: My room

Current Mood:

ROFL

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28 July 2009 @ 07:49 pm

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA,

You made me so gleeful when you said this is one of the best birthdays you've had :] i cleaned the whole house , made spaghetti with meatballs for dinner but those things i do because you work too hard , I felt like i was 5 again when i made you a b-day card and an envelope (which looked weird )...but your big surprise is that i just came back from picking up your cake ..with the help of my aunts distracting you ..but seriously woman even though we frequently butt heads i love you to death and i have all those rad memories of us doing reckless things like playing with water guns in the house , or just bugging the hell out of my dad XD ...

Current Location: Living Room

Current Mood:

jubilant

Current Music: Oye Como Va- Santana

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22 July 2009 @ 03:02 pm

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So iv'e been MIA for a while ..wow just my world took this big flip , but i have slowly but surely gotten back in order . Apart from my life going all crazy lol i have spent more time with my nieces and nephew and i have to admire my cousin how she can handle those three kids. keep an immaculate home, and do everything she has to do . But Sanch gave me props for doing it for 2 days :] "damn your gonna be a great mom" . i haven't done anything really cool this summer yeah it sucks but i feel good that i now clean the whole house while my mom is a work so she can come home and just relax ..and oh yes im going to get my license very soon :] ok so now im just rambling on about stuff lol I hope everyone is ok and having fun :]

Current Mood:

calm

Current Music: Burn It Down -A7X

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01 July 2009 @ 03:29 pm

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Wow its been a while, but i am still breathing at first it was sheer laziness . Hmm ive seen so many movies i forget which ones i saw all i know is that in the past weeks my bed time was 1- 2:30 AM ...then once it was because Sanch & Ramiro and i were just chatting it up :] haha Ramiro and me liking Lonely Island .Yesterday was a good day i PASSED my math class ..then i went to the park with my cousin and her kids then we ate and i slept over ..but Sanch and me where talking about kids and i really can't wait to have them someday xD but i hope everyone is doing great :]

Current Location: "office"/bedroom

Current Mood:

content

Current Music: Never Wanted to Dance- MSI

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13 June 2009 @ 09:01 pm

"I thought it was going to be some hate message ?"

Ahh ..so i finally told him how i feel ..it went WAY better than i had thought it would :] even though doing it through IM was not my choice our schedules were clashing and i was already having a mental break down so w/e lol ...yeah he told me he is taken at the moment , but he gets me and their were alot of lol's because i told him i expected him to say something fucked up but he said he isn't a cruel person like that ...so now im here feeling very good and thankfully we are still friends which is fine with me ..yeah i still like him duah but hey if he is happy then so am i ..

PS: Tomorrow bike ride to beach then run with my dad <3 lol at his midlife crisis XD

Thanks to those L.J friends that helped me go through with it :D

Current Location: sea of blankets

Current Mood:

calm

Current Music: Just What I Needed -The Cars

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10 June 2009 @ 10:26 pm

Cold Feet

Have i lost the confidence i had newly regained ? that little voice wouldn't shut up at 3am it was bringing me down telling me maybe its a bad idea to to tell him ...but it can't be wrong when just thinking about it make me all giddy . Yeah yeah i know im a hopeless romantic but i need to get across that this time its not some juvenile crush i have never really felt this way .... every song , every poem , my writing my art , my dreams ! they all have some sort of reference to him ...us ? Holy Fro i know its not going to be easy to just say "i like you" because i know i'll ramble a bit and possibly have a big dorky smile on my face but i know that if i don't take a risk ill live with that "what if " .
But why am i having second thoughts :[ ?!

Current Location: My Bed

Current Mood:

restless

Current Music: Bliss- Muse (my point EVERY song)

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06 June 2009 @ 06:21 pm

High School...SO 24 hours ago rofl

I'm now a high school graduate :D even after all those times i was convinced that i wasn't going to graduate i made it <3 even though many of my family members couldn't make it to the ceremony im thankful to all my family , now i just have to get through the last week and 3 days of L.A High and my vacation will truly begin ! July ...wow i can't even begin to say all the things im going to do ..im a tad sad at the fact i wont see many people again :[ but i have all those good memories ...so like Ramiro said "Congrats, ur no longer a Nooblet but a noob " :D haha im now pretty much an adult ..rofl well at least im 18 so im legal XD

Current Mood:

accomplished

Current Music: Zero - Smashing Pumpkins

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25 May 2009 @ 04:21 pm

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WOW.. this weekend was birthday bonanza my cousin Ceci celebrated Saturday my cousin Alex Sunday. Then sunday night was just great <33
fat cats , Pirate talk, buying ring tones, matrix, supermassive black hole,guitar & piano playing ,omg and Daisy of Love XD Seriously that was hilarious my man is Sinister , or should i say Shadows hahaha i had a brain fart and i was thinking about A7X lol ..oh then the persistence of one person to cuddle rofl :D

Jasmine u atomic person & Ingrid you Wench ....ILY

GAH i am in love with my cousins dogs <33 as i laid on the grass they came over and just wanted me to pet them

this is Philly & Moka about a month ago and this is them now

6 months

and yes im almost done with my fic thanks to the inspiration by the most random person ..

Current Mood:

bouncy

Current Music: Betrayed- A7X

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17 May 2009 @ 10:14 am

" In The Middle of A Gun Fight "

This title has never been so true ....
I have never been so fucking scared like i was those few seconds

....Yesterday i was going to go to Hollywood with Jen & Ramiro ..but he bailed on us so we had no ride ..so Jens mom said she would take us then her dad said Jen just take the car i trust you but her mom says she would do it ..it was fine ..so Jen drove but her mom came with so when he got near Hollywood we stop at a red light, this is when the crazy shit ensues :

3 cars where in front of us and to the side a Nissan Versa was going to turn left ...then we hear the screech of tires on pavement and a green car blow into the black Versa Jen saw the car coming but we both noticed the brakes seems to be jammed and ok then thats when Jen say ohh fuck and she is about to drive when a dozen cop cars swarm the green car and we are caught right in the middle Jens mom i freaking out so Jen rolls her window up locks the car and puts it in park...their is no where to go but stay in the car and then the officers jump out of the cars ,guns aimed thats where we got scared ..so Jen's mom yells at her to jump in the back with me and get down the officers start yelling orders to get out so i was opening the door when i hear "stay in the car" then Jen says dude my mom has been through a war im like omg fuck..so then the officers open the car door and literally pulls us out by our arms and tell us to get down and go behind the building ..so we are freaking out because their is a possible shoot out about to occur then they tell us to keep going to the corner since Jen got freaked out she left the car on so we tried telling the officers that if someone could turn it off but he says something about a bomb but we thought he was trying to make a point..but later on we hear an officer say the bomb squad is on the way ...i say "Sanch we are fucked we are not leaving any time soon" so we see the woman that got hit... that poor lady was hysterical and was taken away in an ambulance and i also got to see the crazy driver they patted him down and thats when i saw it , they took out a zip-lock bag from his pants and their where two guns inside then after that they took out what looked like cocaine from his pocket so all we wanted was to get the car but no we waited 5 hours before we got the car back first bomb squad had to go in and inspect the car but no explosives where found then CSI came and so its was 8 o'clock we just went home...but im really grateful for officer Acosta he was so nice to us through the whole ordeal...but i have never seen so many guns near me it was scary as hell ..it all happened just like some movie scene ..when i saw those officers jump out of the car guns aimed at the green car then as we ran seeing the riffles getting loaded i just kept waiting for shots to ring

...not a nice way to start my birthday weekend :\ but it had to happen to me and Sanch ..we are thinking of turning out outings into a feature film lol

I Love All You Guy's <33

Current Location: my aunts house

Current Mood:

blank

Current Music: Afterlife - A7X

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16 May 2009 @ 09:12 am

you and ur Nooblet ways

Okay so a lot of things happened this week not going to put all just going to say life is funny people seek me out when they are having guy troubles yet ive never been in a relationship per say ....but anyways gah my 18th birthday sunday :D im really indifferent about to the point i think i angered my mom...ya i had said i wanted to be alone on my birthday hmmm i think im just to overwhelmed with other stuff to be happy but w/e next week i go clubbing and going to buy my first pack of smokes lol i havent decided if im actually going to light up thought :\

oh and that Sanch ROFL lawls at our convos and girly moments about the A7X guys and Tony Kanal ..ha and Ramiro helping me choose what games to buy

now im going to finish my coffee and bacon egg biscuit <333

( Should i wear lipstick ? Yes or No lol )

Current Location: Bed

Current Mood:

mellow

Current Music: Scream- A7X

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16 May 2009 @ 09:08 am

Writer's Block: You Ate What?

What's the weirdest thing you've ever eaten? Would you eat it again?

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Pepperoni Pizza with sour gummy bears XD and yes i would eat it again ROFL

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09 May 2009 @ 06:53 pm

Prom 2009

Yay prom went well :D we got a hotel room so me and my friends got dressed together then we were done early soo we watched the Laker game lawls..then we went down and went inside and danced and had fun but the best part was after prom :D we went up to the room to "freshen up" some of my friends couldn't take their shoes anymore lol so we chilled and then christinas dad called that he was their so we put on some flip flops and went down stairs. he drove us to the Denny's in Hollywood at 1.AM haha priceless expression on the staff as 4 girls in prom dresses walk in laughing their asses off.. so we sat down and we had pancake balls , eggs, coffee, lemonade it was epic then around 2 ish more people came in and some where drunk which was funny and seriously why we didn't get kicked out for being so loud is beyond me ..then some random guy was like have fun O_0 so we where done and talking about the randomist things and we walked out to the parking lot to wait for Christinas dad to come back and as we were leaving some guys where too and they held the door open and i said thank you then one of the guys says "Alex why don't you ever open doors for me" we laughed and kept walking then drove back to the hotel and around 3:30 AM got in and we just changed washed our faces and knocked out ..we woke up today at 8:00 and hit the pool , sauna all day now im back home and tired :D

ya that's my prom dress lol long story

Current Mood:

cheerful

Current Music: Shadowplay - The Killers

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07 May 2009 @ 07:27 am

"Well my gun fires seven diffrent shades of shit ..so whats your favorite color punk ?" :]

Yah good morning :D im still alive just been very busy... started the second semester at L.A High but my friend Foozy had to take english so he sadly isn't in my class :[ but he always waits for us . This morning started off ohh so sweet i always pass by Loyola in the morning and see all those yummy boys playing lacrosse or just jogging shirtless lol but today was just epic i was watching them but i see two of the lacrosse player running but they didn't see each other coming and slammed head on, oh the comedy ! hopefully they where ok. The weather here is yet again being bi-polar :\ but i got A/C yes massive win . Prom tomorrow um *insert nonchalant word or sound * ya im pretty chill about it :D . Oh and that boy i swear , keeps calling me nooblet which i told him is cute rofl . His mission is to sharpie fail on me i'd love to see him try ..so tata for now .

Current Mood:

content

Current Music: Supermassive Black Hole - Muse

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28 April 2009 @ 07:37 pm

"Caught here in a fiery blaze, won't lose my will to stay. "

>_< ughh !!
i hate hypocrites and people who boost their self esteem by trying to be "better" than others. Seriously you think that im going to feel all bad because im lonesome well here is a big Fuck You ..because you know what i really don't give a crap anymore :] im currently very happy with my life and nothing you do matters to me . Its funny how you said all those things about me and for what ? what did you get out of it besides temporary satisfaction . But w/e i needed to let this out :\

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